Too much makeup

I have enough makeup to probably last me the rest of my life.  However, it seems I can't find the right anything.  I like to look natural when applying, as I don't want to look overly made up.  I feel like I use the right amount of prep to keep makeup from slipping.  Before applying makeup, I wash my face, put on face moisturizer, and then using a makeup primer.  My steps of applying makeup are as follows:

1. Makeup Primer
2. Lightweight Liquid Foundation or tinted moisturizer
3. Undereye concealer
4. Setting powder for undereye concealer
5. Light bronzer to give me a little bit of color on my pasty Irish/Swiss complexion
6. Blush
7. Eyeliner
8. Eye shadow
9. Mascara
10. Lipstick or lipgloss

By the time lunch rolls around (it could be sooner,  but I usually check my makeup around then), I look like I have NO makeup on. I look ghostly and washed out.  I don't want to apply with a heavy hand, because I don't want to look like a clown.  There has got to be a happy medium.

I promise myself I wouldn't...

I promise myself I wouldn't write another ranting blog for a while.  However, it has been one of those weeks, so the ranting has been penned up and it must come out! 

Everything just is bothering me, and it all started this week.  This week has been particularly difficult at work.  The morale is low.  We are all bitching to each other about the atmosphere.  And just realizing that why am I in the situation I am in.

So these are my rants for this week:

• When ordering blinds, why does it jump from 23" w to 27" w.  I need 26" in width.  Now it is going to cost me a lot more money to buy custom blinds.
• Bath and Body works discontinuing 2 pack wallflowers and scents that I like.  They are discontinuing Sea Island Cotton and Sensual Amber.  There are a lot more scents they are discontinuing, but those two are the ones that stick out.  They will continue to sell single bulb wallflowers, and maybe eco-friendly, but is certainly not wallet friendly.  One bulb is $6, and they hardly ever go on sale.
• Not getting any return phone calls from my doctors.  My temporary general doctor needs to see my progress on a medication I have been on since 2005.  Really?  Just so you can see me for five minutes, charge me a $20 co-pay only to write out the prescription wrong.  Granted my prescription plan is horrible now; the script has to written out in 90 day increments, or it will be more expensive if it is written out for 30 days. I told my doctor this and didn't check when I left only to be told when filling my prescription.  I don't know why he can't write it out for a year.  He wrote out for 5 months. Why???  So I called the office today to let him know he needs to rewrite the script out but I won't hold my breath waiting for a callback.  Same with my Gynecologist.  I need to find a replacement but for the time being I need her to provide me with the prescription she was supposed to write me back for my annual in April.  She gave me the samples, but not the script.  Well I am coming close to using up my samples and call her to let her know I need the script she never provided, only to not get a callback after leaving two messages.  
• To micro-managing.  Instead of telling us that there things to do even though we are completely swamped, why not pitch in and be a team player.
• About people who don't want to do their job.  We are the front line so deal with every nut, crazy, stupid, and clueless person.  When someone calls and requests to speak to someone specifically and when you call them to let them know, and they hem and haw before taking the call.  God forbid you might have to lift a finger and do your job.
• About realizing I feel like I don't have a career direction.  I do but I am afraid I am not doing anything to be able to advance.  I am wondering where I can go from here???

I know there were more, but these are the ones just swirling around my head for the past few days.

Hopefully I will have something more cheerful to post 

Job Jumperoo

I don't want to be a job jumper.  I just can't find a job that is the right "fit".  At my last job our VP of Student Affairs was very big on "FIT".  He even conducted presentations on this.  Finding the right fit has proved to be more productive, happy, successful.  But how do you find that right fit?  This job I even told the hiring manager I was trying to find the right fit, and she convinced me this was the place.  She said it had everything I was looking for.  I believed this was more of a counseling role, somewhat similar to admissions but without having to do presentations, the travel, and instead of working with undergraduates, I would be working with graduate students.  However most of this job is data collecting, number crunching, accounting and troubleshooting.  Anytime there is a problem concerning a grad matter, I am the one to fix it, even if it is something the student should really do for them self.  If a student doesn't get paid for some reason, I have to hunt down why and fix it.  If a student hasn't heard back from the housing office, I have to look into it for him.  At the end of the day and even during the day I have that feeling that this is certainly not the right fit.  When will I find the right fit?  I am hoping my next move will be the right one and put me on the right path.

Summer's over and then some rambling

Once July 4th is over you might as well say goodbye to summer.  The day after the fourth of July stores are filled with back to school items, party stores start putting out Halloween items, and just wait the clothing stores will start rolling out the fall lines.  I guess it is a great time to buy a lot of summer items as they start going on clearance, but I dread the thought of anything fall.  I typically enjoy the summer more than anything.  Unfortunetly this summer there has been a lot of trials and tribulations.  Starting a new job this year has made it very hard to take time off.  I am basically doing work to get work done, but not really comprehending how or what I am doing.  It is constant catch up.  For the type of job and what I get paid I should be able to take time off without feeling overwhelmed, but that is not the case.  I haven't taken a day off this entire summer.  I have only taken a couple days to either take my mom to the doctor or take care of other things for my mom.  We just bought a house and I haven't had a moment to do anything with it.  We have a pool and I have been in it 3 times despite the great weather we have had this summer (with the exception of today).  This makes me think I am doing something wrong.  If I wanted a job that took up this much of my time and the stress I have been dealing with, I would have a job that paid a heck of a lot more.  I really need to evaluate what to do with my life.  I am 30 and I feel like I should be in a different spot in my life in regards to my career.  I should have followed what I initially wanted to do.  When I was in high school/college, I wanted to be a guidance counselor.  Back when I was in college NJ still had the requirement that you needed to teach 3 years before being able to be a guidance counselor.  I could not see myself teaching so I let that possible career slip out of my mind.  During college I got very involved and really enjoyed student activities.  I saw a lot of my advisors and thought what a cool job. Planning events, working with college students.  So after graduating and not being able to find a "real" job I decided to go to grad school for Higher Education Administration.  I go to a school in south jersey and go part time for the first year working part time as a temp at citibank.  The second year I decide to go full time.  My only employment is my grad assistantship.  I finish all my course and have a 4.0 GPA.  However I completely get so far behind on my thesis.  I deal with idea block, writer's block, and begin to have such anxiety over it.  Now 6 years later I am ABT (all but thesis).  What do I do???  I am thinking about every way to finish a degree without having to do a thesis.  Doing this god forsaken job makes me realize how I would really enjoy being a guidance counselor.  However to do so would require going back to school and.do.a.thesis.  This thing of doing a thesis is paralyzing me to move forward with my future, my goals.  Oh how I wish I was a guidance counselor and have summers off.  Not worrying about taking time off.  To enjoy my time of year....summer.

Sleepy's beware

My mom is coming home from physical rehab and will be staying with us for a few days.  It has been a long haul and we have a lot more work to go but I am so happy she is able to come home.  Anyway, with this said, this kind of kicked us into high gear to get the guest room in order.  We had ordered a bed from overstock.com a few weeks ago but it has yet to be set up because we need to clear out all the clutter from the room.  The guest room has become the catch all of stuff we don't know where to put yet.

Since she is coming to stay with us TOMORROW, Jeff had gone out last night to get a mattress.  He went to Sleepy's near our house.  I did a little research before he went but didn't have a chance to share with him the information I have collected (shipping information, etc.).  When I got home last night I had asked Jeff about the mattress he got.  I saw on the sales slip that they charged $89.99 for shipping.  On the website I thought I saw $69.99 for shipping.  I had contacted their customer service and questioned the shipping they charged us.  They told me that if bought online it is $69.99 and in store $89.99.  That really doesn't make too much sense to me as they are coming from the same warehouse.  Where the difference of $20 comes in, I don't really understand.  But then following that tidbit of information, the customer service representative says that if you purchase a mattress that subtotal is more than $600 shipping is waived.  I said the mattress we bought before tax and shipping was $599.99.  She is like well you wouldn't get the free shipping then because it wasn't $600.  It is a difference of a penny.  That is their policy she exclaims.  Well I abruptly said I will be going back to the store and taking it up with them.  If they do not refund the shipping over the difference of a penny I will be canceling my order.  In my opinion that is horrible customer service and I would hope they understand that or they are going to be losing a customer and a sale because of a penny difference.  I have to say customer service and what you get has really gone down significantly.  Wish me luck and hope I don't have to be escorted out of the store.

Thank you NJ 101.5

I get on these kicks.  Usually I listen to my satellite radio for music.  But lately I have been listening to talk radio.  Every so often I listen to NJ 101.5 and then I get tired of it and stop listening for a bit.  Now is one of those times I am listening all the time and I don't know why.  They mostly talk about politics in New Jersey and we all know how politics in NJ go.  Yesterday morning driving into work I was listening to Jim Gearhart.  He is this real old conservative guy who pretty who thinks public employees are the drain on NJ's economy.  Not the employees themselves but their benefits, contracts, union reps, etc.  Anyway, he was speaking about this Director of technology in Bergen County that was suspended due to over expenditures of travel and other items using monies from his department.  He has then retired.  His pension is going to pay him roughly $144,000 a year and when he cashes out all unused sick/vacation/compensatory time he will cash out about $480,000.  To me that is A LOT of money.  It makes me think what did I do wrong?  Well first it makes me think this is why this state is in a financial crisis and then I think what did I do wrong?  The way I am going I am never going to make a salary remotely close to that.  Even though I work in "education" I do not get those perks of being able cash out sick time or vacation time.  I don't even get to carry them over!  I need to figure out a way to make my job work for me.  The question is how.....so thank you NJ 101.5.